Bringing the Blurry into Focus

Nowadays I feel like so many of us are searching for what makes us happy.  Happiness in career, love, and well life in general.  I have felt like I have been on a life long expedition to find what makes me happy and continually looking to outside sources for a sense of acceptance, love, fulfillment, and overall satisfaction.  What I have come to discover is that nothing on the outside is permanent.  Outside reality is constantly shifting and changing.  What once offered me comfort and security is now no longer in my scope of being or even within my visual realm.  Time and time again during these instances of change I found myself overly emotional and unable to connect with the possibility of connecting with happiness again.  

Lately I have been living in a reality of constant change.  This constant change and outward chaos has afforded and I would say blessed me with the opportunity to look inward.  How I feel about myself, what kind of person am I, where inside myself does happiness exist?  I have cut through layers of emotion, energy, personal blocks, resistance, and judgment to settle into this place within that is warm and loving.  I have heard it said many times that happiness is found on the inside, but I never really knew how to get there or what that looked like.  It took my entire outer world crumbling, looking past my emotions, and a rigorous yoga practice to open the doors for me to look at what really made me happy.  You know what I found, me.  I make me happy.  This sounds silly, but it's true.  Accepting myself for all of my beauty, heart, flaws, mistakes, and everything else in between has settled me into a space of peace that could only be found within me.  

With so many opportunities to buy into outward happiness and instant gratification in this world it is easy to loose site of how magical we are as human beings.  I have found myself so caught up in distraction in my past it is amazing I ever even allowed myself that deep breath that opened the door to my inner journey.  I had been so caught up in what my outer world looked like that I completely neglected my inner world.  I have no idea what the future holds at this point, but being anchored into myself, rooted into happiness, and having an overall loving attitude has been the most amazing experience in and of itself.